My Love 💑
In late 2013, I finished my Diploma of English Proficiency at Paññāsāstra University of Cambodia (PUC), and I continued my bachelor degree at that school as well. During my first semester in foundation year, I was such a quiet sudent. I usually sat tight and kept mom in class and everywhere as I did not have more friends. First semester had finished successfully and I got good grades as well. I first merely thought that having love during my study was harmful to my life. I tried to keep my braid clean as my as I could.
Second semester had come to my schedule, and I took four subjects. Among those four subjects, there was an intersting subject called Khmer Study. In that class there were approximately 120 students who came from different majors. Importantly, the class required students to form in group of six or seven students in order to discuss and do assignment. Also, we needed to have a study-trip to Angkor Wat temple to research some information related to Khmer. Anyway, teacher did not force students to go there. If they were happy to go there with other students, I could go. If they were not afford to go there, students could go to anywhere where could help them to do their assignment. Since it was my first time to visit Siem Reap province, I registered for the trip and went there for two nights and three days. When we were back, we also submitted our assignment to our instuctor. The result for the whole semester for that subject also releast as soon as the term finished.Most of the sudents were really happy with their good grades. I was different from them, though. I checked my grade, captured, and posted my grade into Facebook. Everyone was really shoched with my grade, and they adviced me to ask teacher immediately.
On the second day of my posting it was December 24, 2014, one of a girl whose name I did know also commented in my post. She asked me to ask teacher and then ask APO (Academic Program Office) even she was not my friends in class and Facebook. I just known her face and her sister's name because her sister was one of my group member. Because of her kindness and friendliness, I wanted to add her ask my since I kided with my friends and her that I got F+ even my real grade was A. As a result, she added me first. I, thus, had no idea to beside confirming this girls. Since then I was trying to cheat chat with her even I did not know her real name. I just called her Ah Kon Jruk, and sometimes Ah Jruk for long time.
One day I met her real face at school, yet I did not recognize her face. It was embarassed me that I did not know her face but she did. She called me out first and told me who she was and what her real name was. I felt so suprised to know her name and her face who I always cheated chat to her everyday. Our relationship was getting close and closer from that time. We sometimes met each other at school, yet in Facebook was everyday.
One night at my rental room, while I was sitting with my roommate, Pheyyuthea, and playing Facebook, my phone rang. I picked up my phone and talk to that person. I did knew who was calling me because I got her phone number from my friend, but I pretended to be ignorance. I talked to her politely and ask who she was. That was interesting when she told me she got a wrong phone number. She sorried me and told me who she was and where she live. Her name was Leeya and she was living in Pailin province. That sounded so good because she was kidding with me even I did knew who she was. Since then I called her and messaged her every night and day, and I always called her as Leeya. My heart was starting falling in love with her from day to day, and I wished to met her every time. One day, she called me and asked me, "Do you know who I am?" During that time I was laughing silently and then I repliey her question, "Yes, I do. I have known you since you just first call me. I had gotten your phone number for lone time, but I have no gut to call you." Since that time, there was no secrets between she and me. We talked, told the truth, and helping each other as much as we could, and I falled in love with her more and more.
One night while I was talking on phone with her, I tried to talk something which were related to my feeling with her. I said, " Even you don't have any dimple like your sister, I feel like this with you." She replied me, " No, it could not happen." Because of talking this word to her, almost everything, my relationship, and my heart, were mostly destroyed. I felt I was wrong and I should not think of this with her anymore. Anyway, during that time I still continued my talk with her on phone even my real feeling was going down.
That bad night had started into my mind. I still thinking of the word I talked to her and her replying. I tried to sleep even my feeling was thinking of. The next morning had come, but everything was a bit different from other days. I always sent her a few messages vai Facebook; however, I sent her nothing for that morning. I did not want to get any sadnesses from that feeling; I tried to stay as away as from from. She chated to me first, though. She has a small talk with me and then she asked me, " Why didn't I send her a message as everyday. What was happening with me?" I replied her a bit roudness because I did not want her to come close to me, " I'm okay. Nothing happen to me. Today I don't message you becouse of my forgetness." For about haft and hour next, I sent her a sorry message which I had talk the night before. She acepted my apologize, and she replied me, " Sometimes you can follow your feeling. It is not wrong with you and I." After getting her message, I felt more and more happier. My heart was starting watering and growing up with that message. I called and talk to her as sweet as I could, and sometimes I frauded her to called her as Oun.
As I am falling in love with her for long time and I just kept it in my heart, I could not hold on this feeling. I sometimes felt jealous when she talked with her male friends. On Thursday 14 August, 2014, I tried all my best to be a real man. I confesed my feeling that I've fallen in love with her for long; I asked her to be my girlfriend. After telling her the truth, my feeling did not stay in my body. I was afraid to lose her and I was looking forward to know her answer. She did not reply me as quickly as I wanted; she asked me a lot about my feeling. Eventually, she answered me, " Yes, I do. I love you too."
Nowadays, we are staying in love with each other and we are enjoying with our lives. We are two different people, yet we have one live and one love.
On this honor day, the first year anniversary of our love, and on behalf of your boyfriend, I do promise you that I will keep our love last forever and love you only one. I will hold on your hands and walk though any problems which we will encounter with. "I love you baby, and I'm going to marry you."
Love,
Panha 💐
